A miraGe

There are a lot of things that we use/do to hide from the people around us. 

1.       Façade of happiness, hiding the thousand tears of a broken heart.

2.       A mask, to hide our inner self which we hide for fear of disappointments.

3.       Pride, to hide our weaknesses and try to comfort our own insecurities.

4.       Disabilities, to explain our failures in life.

5.       Blame, to reassure our decisions and principles.

6.       Illness, to excuse us from our laziness and lack of discipline.

7.       Escape, to shield us from our fears.

8.       Love, to break out of our loneliness.

9.       Success, to distract us from our own discontentment.

10.   Vices, to elude our deepest problems that haunt us in our life.

11.   Rebel, to break free from society’s clutches and Norms.

12.   Ignore, to avoid the existence of possible disappointments and problems.

13.   Detached, to evade the fear of getting hurt….. Again….

14.   Mediocre, the content of being average and never taking responsibility.

15.   Sarcasm, to dodge our own faults and mistakes.

16.   Indifferent, the conceited side of ourselves unable to accept others and outside help.

17.   Arrogance, the unwillingness to learn and experience.

18.   Lie, a thin door for an escape to an unwanted situation.

19.   Wealth, to make up for our unfortunate past and to be able to reach our distant future.

20.   Fear, the reaction of ourselves unable to fathom the unknown.

We tend to shrink in fear not really knowing what awaits us after our next move. Life is an unfinished chess game constantly in need of our decisions. We ignore the possibility of success and failure to emphasize our own free will. These situations presented to us, decides whether we fall or stand up. In the end, knowing who we truly are and thus finding peace. *sigh*

 

I wander through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would say:
A life you don’t live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ‘til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love ‘til you feel it
It’s all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real ‘til it’s gone

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

Hold on before it’s too late
Until we leave this behind
Don’t fall, just be who you are
It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that we need in our lives

It’s all that I need in my life

*this song hit me when I heard it.. Download the song and look at the lyrics and you’ll see why…

Another wasted Saturday…

Saturdays, a break, a time needed and most of all a time that is mine. I really didn’t appreciate Saturdays back when I was in high school. The reason behind it was because I really did not have a Saturday to cherish. Unlike other schools who have Saturdays as a no school day.  We all have Saturday classes back then and it was one of the longest days of our school days. So, all of us rather did not have any TGIF (thank God It’s Friday) “NIGHTS”. Times when usually all high school student will have a break from school and go out partying all night and resting on Saturday.

Well it really did not bother me at all for the following reasons:

1.          1. I didn’t know of TGIF nights back then. *hmmm*

2.          2. Most of my batch mates and friends didn’t know it either. *I guess*

3.          3. Normal family and Friends night outs were either on a Wednesday, Thursday afternoon, Saturday night          or Sunday.

4.         4. Chinese tests on Friday, which means no sleep for the crammers the night before and so Friday                    nights, are spent for sleeping and rest.

5.          5. I wouldn’t be allowed to go out anyway. * unless….*

Looking back, I think it didn’t matter at all. This was probably the reason why almost all of my friends love to go to movies. It’s because we usually go out on Wednesdays when movies are usually first released. Movie houses wouldn’t be jumped packed because the ones who were watching were either “yuppies”, call center agents and some couples.

I miss those nights. Actually, I miss my friends….

oooooooooooooooHHHHHHHHHH...............

Well, many believe that a friday that falls on a 13th brings bad luck. A day when every things just doesn't feel right? A day when almost everything you plan goes out of hand and goes wrong. To tell you the truth I really don't believe it. Luck and Bad luck for me, is always together. It is just based on how we manage the situation given to us which determines whether it will be luck or misfortune. Doesn't really matter if you want it or not, it just comes.

That is one of the things that makes our life exciting.

Hooray!!! Well, I've finally decided to get my very own live journal account...
I am really excited about this!

Never really had a decent journal cause i end up sketching and doodling over the pages more than writing on them. They tend to end up as sketch pads more than journals. In the future, maybe I'll post some of the sketches I've made. I don't know if they're any good but I do like them...

Well, since this is my first entry, I believe my future self would be reading this... *haha*
and by that time I will surely be laughing my heart out for posting such entry.

So to my future self: " Hi...."

Anyways, it's getting late and I have tons of work in the morning so I guess this is goodbye!!!
Until my next post!!!